Journal Entry from Thursday, November 15, 2012.

I just got off the phone with  Jeremy a representative from Marymount College, and I have a meeting scheduled with him on Tuesday, November 20.  It seems there are not as strict as Cal State or UC systems, on their admissions requirements.  I can only hope and pray that I'll be accepted and the funding will come so that I may go to a truly Catholic college.

Journal Entry from Friday, November 23, 2012

This journal entry is in regards to yesterday Thanksgiving day 2012:

12:15 AM

This journal entry is in regards to yesterday Thanksgiving day 2012:

Had a great time with mom, dad, Sara had the usual Thanksgiving dinner all that fun stuff :-) Sometimes I wish you could go longer.  It's always great to get together and do stuff as a family.  For instance, we played cards and had the usual turkey, pie, etc.

Also asked mom and dad what they thought about me entering the seminary and they said basically if it's your calling then it your calling.

Journal Entry from November 24, 2012.

I got up this morning and did my usual thing wasted time on the computer and from there later on took a shower, shave, brush my teeth and got ready to go to Confession and Holy Mass.  I got to confession did my penance.  I feel 100% better now, and because that I know I'm walking in a state of Grace so it was with a good conscience that I could go and receive the body, blood, soul and divinity of Christ in Holy Communion.  And it has now become a practice almost a habit.  I am receiving communion.  Well kneeling with my mouth open and always receiving it on the tongue.

My last few times that mouse.  It has seemed like that I'm just totally self-absorbed and I do not mean that in a negative way.  I mean that in a purely positive spiritual way.  I just isolate everything out except me and Christ.  And that is just a wonderful feeling that I cannot describe in mere words.  I wish and pray that everyone could feel as complete as I do when I'm in that state.  After mass I spoke with a brother from the Brothers of St. Patrick and he has given me the same advice everybody else gives me pray but; he also offered another piece of advice when I told him that God called me 10 years ago and I kind of "brushed him off,"10 years ago, I did not listen to God's call.  I wanted to but I was just not meant to listen and now I am listening very intently!

I've been listening to a lot of the venerable Archbishop Fulton Sheen audio recordings and some of the YouTube videos and I'm finding them very inspirational.  My favorite ones so far:

Are the retreat on priesthood series specifically meaning of being a priest and why God chose you.

And also on St. Teresa of Lisieux those are entitled our cartel holiness and the path to holiness.

10:26 PM

Trying to get some inspiration for the presentation/proposal for the Apologetics study At Blessed Sacrament Catholic Church.  Unsure on how I plan to do this but then again, I just have to let the Holy Spirit.

Journal Entry from Sunday, November 25, 2012

Sunday, November 25, 2012

2:04 PM

Today is the feast day of Christ the King and I actually feel bad that I did not get up and go to mass because I stayed up last night watching TV and munching Doritos.  I need to get on a regular schedule especially if I'm going in the seminary and also going on the positive assumption that I will be accepted to Marymount college for just a simple fact on that I'm going to have to get up early in the morning be up late at night studying.

This desk is driving me nuts; I wish that someone could come in and organize this desk and this office but more importantly I wish that I could learn how to keep it organized and clean.

11:20 PM

I just finished watching the DVD of Therese, Ordinary Girl Extraordinary Soul:

It is the true story of St. Therese of Lisieux this is a very spiritual and enlightening and also moving documentary on one of the most humblest and in my opinion one of the greatest saints of Holy Mother Church.  This might be the sign that I have been asking God for she struggled in a lot of ways that I have struggled in my own life.  Is God calling me to be a Carmelite?  Or is he calling me to be a simple diocesan priest?  Only he knows and I believe in his time.  He will show me and assist me in his path for me.  I am not worthy to become a saint.  I'm just a lowly soul.

Journal Entry from Wednesday, November 28, 2012

2:06 AM

Just got back from just shy of 3 hours with The Blessed Sacrament..... Did the 1st two days of the Novena of St Therese of Lisieux, The first day of the novena of St. John Bosco, and the emergency novena of Blessed Mother Theresa (twice). Along with the sorrowful mysteries.

Normally when I pray I ask for the intentions of others..... I now feel guilty that I asked for my own intentions. Also feel guilty that I left; after just under 3hrs.

Journal Entry from Friday, November 30, 2012

2:19 PM

When the blessed mother told me back in April or May the martyr.  I had no idea he married my be with them

Journal Entry from Sunday, December 02, 2012

4:42 PM

Today is the first Sunday of Advent and I finally asked my mother how come we never had an Advent wreath.  She basically told me in a nutshell that she didn't know what was she thought it was something new and I guess that was that.

There's just some things in life that you're always wondering about it is during these times that you must decide on what traditions you will keep what traditions you will start and which ones you will revive.

10:53 PM

Just got back from meeting with Wendy and having a fairly decent discussion with her about our possible future together.  I would like for us to get back together and give this another shot.  However, it's up to her to make the final decision, she said with prayer and guidance from the Holy Spirit.  She will be a will to do it.  Now it is with prayer and guidance that I have to take the next step and see what God wants me to do.  So I will finish up tonight and clean office desk a little and go through the stuff that I took off the desk pullout the pride stuff and get that ready for deposit for tomorrow and then get started on Venice high school and their book.

I also have to work on Sara's gift.  The Photoshop project that I've been working on for two, possibly three years.  Hopefully she'll like it.  So all I will be a will to give her is the file on a USB drive, so it if I'm lucky I may be able to get a print done before Christmas.

Journal Entry from Monday, December 03, 2012

1:21 AM

Just read a portion of the third seal for the apocalypse.  As given to St. Faustina by Christ himself for the divine mercy.  And frankly, it is really scary, sad face

12:23 PM

Just found out that the holy father, Pope Benedict 16th has a new twitter account.  Great it is, however, said that so many people are attacking him and sending "hate tweets"

Journal Entry from Tuesday, December 11, 2012

4:00 PM

Had a talk with Clara last night and I am asked her to take me back.  Even though I'm asshole and I don't deserve her and it's been 10 months since we had a fight and broke off the engagement.

She basically told me we would have to start completely over and start his friends and that she was things that she'd only been seen two months.

I spent some time with her today running around doing some Christmas shopping; and it felt good.  Spending time with her. .  I can only hope and pray that she will come back to me because I love her beyond life itself.

Journal Entry from Thursday, January 03, 2013

1:02 AM

A couple days ago January 1, 2013.  I sent an e-mail off to Wendy's mom Sally via Facebook asking to speak with her and Tom about something and that something was for Wendy's hand in marriage.  However; I guess they interpreted it as that I wanted to ask Wendy right away.  However, I was only asking for permission and or their blessing so that I may do just that at a later date.  What pissed off me on is that they used Wendy to pass their negative news on to me instead of telling me out right.  Ever since Wendy told me their decision every possible scenario has been running my mind and I am all torn-up inside.  I do not know what to think what to do.  I do not even know if I should continue the relationship that I have with Wendy.  Yes I do love her and I know she says she loves me and on some level I believe that, however I guess I'm just a little too old-fashioned because it probably came as a shock to her folks that someone would actually ask for their daughter's hand in marriage.

But what can you do there are very shallow people here in California, and it hurts me to say that Wendy's parents are probably just that because from what Wendy has told me they treat her just like my folks treat me and how they're very protective of her and I understand that what I can't understand is why they are so protective of their daughter, who has and still insists on saving herself for her husband and their wedding night.

Wendy is grounded in her faith and believe me that is something I respect the fact that she wants to save herself for her wedding night.  I've never known a woman like that it just irritates me and eats me up that her parents basically look upon me as a piece of trash and I don't know what I need to do.  Do I need to have a five figure income to impress them, do I need to have a BA or better, have a house of my own, no medical issues???

Journal Entry from 11/01/2013

21:16

I keep finding it interesting that no matter how much they (mom and dad) swear they don't play favorites......  I still keep coming-up on the short end of the stick while Sara gets all the attention.   Mom doesn't mind taking to Sara to the casino, however, when it comes to a plug-in for Photoshop I get my head bitten off.   Sara's dreams have always been supported.....Mine yea right.

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Who are you?

Who are you.....?
Are you Judas who betrayed Jesus?
Are you Peter why denied Jesus?
Are you Thomas who doubted Jesus?
Are you Paul who persecuted Jesus?

If you have ever told God that you would or would not do something and then didn't or did do it.... Then you are Judas.
Have you ever not expressed your faith publicly for fear of losing that promotion, possible job or even your own life.....Then you are Peter.
Have you ever said I'll believe it when I see it.....Then you are Thomas.
Or where you one who persecuted others for their belief in Jesus Christ only to later believe yourself....Then welcome Paul.

The fact is that at some point in everyone of our lives we are one of these; sometimes more than just one.

Christ calls us to follow him.....Not follow the world.

In order to truly call ourselves Christians (Christ-Like) we must endure and overcome the same struggles, pain, torment and persecution that our Savior did.....Even to the point of death.

My Last 24 Maxim Interview 2012

This picture is from a Advanced Photoshop Project where we had to interview and be interviewed on the last 24 hours of our life.....  A feature that Maxim Magazine does.

I think Philip Titolo, my classmate, nailed it on me.

Prayer life 04-19-2014

Last night after getting out of the movie "Heaven Is For Real"  I was given a message that even thou at this point in time I'm not destined for the seminary I am to get my prayer life back to the point where I was when I was in discernment for it.

A Childs Eyes

It is often said that we must become like children to see God.

Matthew 18:2-4

And calling to him a child, he put him in the midst of them and said, “Truly, I say to you, unless you turn and become like children, you will never enter the kingdom of heaven. Whoever humbles himself like this child is the greatest in the kingdom of heaven. (Matthew 18:2-4 ESV)