Journal Entry from Thursday, November 15, 2012.

I just got off the phone with  Jeremy a representative from Marymount College, and I have a meeting scheduled with him on Tuesday, November 20.  It seems there are not as strict as Cal State or UC systems, on their admissions requirements.  I can only hope and pray that I'll be accepted and the funding will come so that I may go to a truly Catholic college.

Journal Entry from Friday, November 23, 2012

This journal entry is in regards to yesterday Thanksgiving day 2012:

12:15 AM

This journal entry is in regards to yesterday Thanksgiving day 2012:

Had a great time with mom, dad, Sara had the usual Thanksgiving dinner all that fun stuff :-) Sometimes I wish you could go longer.  It's always great to get together and do stuff as a family.  For instance, we played cards and had the usual turkey, pie, etc.

Also asked mom and dad what they thought about me entering the seminary and they said basically if it's your calling then it your calling.

Journal Entry from November 24, 2012.

I got up this morning and did my usual thing wasted time on the computer and from there later on took a shower, shave, brush my teeth and got ready to go to Confession and Holy Mass.  I got to confession did my penance.  I feel 100% better now, and because that I know I'm walking in a state of Grace so it was with a good conscience that I could go and receive the body, blood, soul and divinity of Christ in Holy Communion.  And it has now become a practice almost a habit.  I am receiving communion.  Well kneeling with my mouth open and always receiving it on the tongue.

My last few times that mouse.  It has seemed like that I'm just totally self-absorbed and I do not mean that in a negative way.  I mean that in a purely positive spiritual way.  I just isolate everything out except me and Christ.  And that is just a wonderful feeling that I cannot describe in mere words.  I wish and pray that everyone could feel as complete as I do when I'm in that state.  After mass I spoke with a brother from the Brothers of St. Patrick and he has given me the same advice everybody else gives me pray but; he also offered another piece of advice when I told him that God called me 10 years ago and I kind of "brushed him off,"10 years ago, I did not listen to God's call.  I wanted to but I was just not meant to listen and now I am listening very intently!

I've been listening to a lot of the venerable Archbishop Fulton Sheen audio recordings and some of the YouTube videos and I'm finding them very inspirational.  My favorite ones so far:

Are the retreat on priesthood series specifically meaning of being a priest and why God chose you.

And also on St. Teresa of Lisieux those are entitled our cartel holiness and the path to holiness.

10:26 PM

Trying to get some inspiration for the presentation/proposal for the Apologetics study At Blessed Sacrament Catholic Church.  Unsure on how I plan to do this but then again, I just have to let the Holy Spirit.

Journal Entry from Sunday, November 25, 2012

Sunday, November 25, 2012

2:04 PM

Today is the feast day of Christ the King and I actually feel bad that I did not get up and go to mass because I stayed up last night watching TV and munching Doritos.  I need to get on a regular schedule especially if I'm going in the seminary and also going on the positive assumption that I will be accepted to Marymount college for just a simple fact on that I'm going to have to get up early in the morning be up late at night studying.

This desk is driving me nuts; I wish that someone could come in and organize this desk and this office but more importantly I wish that I could learn how to keep it organized and clean.

11:20 PM

I just finished watching the DVD of Therese, Ordinary Girl Extraordinary Soul:

It is the true story of St. Therese of Lisieux this is a very spiritual and enlightening and also moving documentary on one of the most humblest and in my opinion one of the greatest saints of Holy Mother Church.  This might be the sign that I have been asking God for she struggled in a lot of ways that I have struggled in my own life.  Is God calling me to be a Carmelite?  Or is he calling me to be a simple diocesan priest?  Only he knows and I believe in his time.  He will show me and assist me in his path for me.  I am not worthy to become a saint.  I'm just a lowly soul.

Journal Entry from Wednesday, November 28, 2012

2:06 AM

Just got back from just shy of 3 hours with The Blessed Sacrament..... Did the 1st two days of the Novena of St Therese of Lisieux, The first day of the novena of St. John Bosco, and the emergency novena of Blessed Mother Theresa (twice). Along with the sorrowful mysteries.

Normally when I pray I ask for the intentions of others..... I now feel guilty that I asked for my own intentions. Also feel guilty that I left; after just under 3hrs.

Journal Entry from Friday, November 30, 2012

2:19 PM

When the blessed mother told me back in April or May the martyr.  I had no idea he married my be with them

Journal Entry from Sunday, December 02, 2012

4:42 PM

Today is the first Sunday of Advent and I finally asked my mother how come we never had an Advent wreath.  She basically told me in a nutshell that she didn't know what was she thought it was something new and I guess that was that.

There's just some things in life that you're always wondering about it is during these times that you must decide on what traditions you will keep what traditions you will start and which ones you will revive.

10:53 PM

Just got back from meeting with Wendy and having a fairly decent discussion with her about our possible future together.  I would like for us to get back together and give this another shot.  However, it's up to her to make the final decision, she said with prayer and guidance from the Holy Spirit.  She will be a will to do it.  Now it is with prayer and guidance that I have to take the next step and see what God wants me to do.  So I will finish up tonight and clean office desk a little and go through the stuff that I took off the desk pullout the pride stuff and get that ready for deposit for tomorrow and then get started on Venice high school and their book.

I also have to work on Sara's gift.  The Photoshop project that I've been working on for two, possibly three years.  Hopefully she'll like it.  So all I will be a will to give her is the file on a USB drive, so it if I'm lucky I may be able to get a print done before Christmas.